33 weeks

49 days….give a few, take a few…the day we’ve been waiting for since June will be here. I think I’ve gotten over the period of being completely afraid of labor that I’m just now in awe that “our moment” will be here so soon. She could possibly be here in about 3 weeks and the docs wouldn’t do anything to try and slow it down or stop it. Today I’ve been trying to get things around the house ready “just in case!” I guess you never can really be prepared for something like this. Her room is ready and we have almost everything we “think” we will need when she first gets here but I’m sure there are all those little items we won’t even realize we’ll need until we actually need them!
I’ve read about and heard about the Braxton Hicks contractions but never noticed that I was experiencing them until just two nights ago…it was pretty exciting! I can feel my body starting to get ready for all that it will endure. It’s amazing how our body tries it’s best to take care of us and prepare us. God definitely knew what He was doing when he created us…it’s all just perfect…literally.
Kylin has been kicking and moving around constantly! I can tell she’s growing and getting stronger…actually I can feel it…her little kicks and rolls are so strong sometimes! We are 33 weeks so our countdown begins…49…

30 weeks pregnant

I am currently 30 weeks pregnant….wow….each day I still find myself amazed at this fact. Each day we get closer to having our “real” baby here. It’s still hard to really understand how she is already alive and living inside of me. I can feel her kick and turn over all throughout the day…but it’s still a concept that blows my mind away. Last night, Travis and I found ourselves sitting in the nursery looking at all we’ve done to get ready for her and talking about what we still need to get and/or do. I cherish those moments spent with him just talking about our past and dreaming about the future. God has brought the two of us through a lot and He continues to take us through this life that is ever-changing and sometimes hard to figure out and understand. I am so thankful for this path I get to walk down and I could not imagine my life without Travis. It seems like just yesterday I was watching him walk up to me for the very first time and pull up a chair beside me in the Gordon College cafeteria and here we are a little over 6 years later talking about our little girl. I am still blown away by the sight of Travis walking up to me….he still takes my breath away. I’m more in love with him now than ever and thinking about him becoming the father to our little girl brings tears to my eyes. Love…it really is a powerful thing. I know God has blessed me tremendously!

I’m feeling Kylin kick and move now more than ever. She has definitely been active! Sometimes at night I feel her kick so hard it hurts…but the uncomfortableness is bearable because it’s nice to know she’s there and doing alright. We went to the doctor this past Monday and everything is looking great. I’ve been so lucky to remain fairly healthy throughout this pregnancy. I can’t believe the pregnancy part is quickly coming to an end. I have to say even though I am beyond excited to have her here with us…I am scared about what is to come. I question if I’ll be not just a good mother, but an amazing mother! I want to be the best for her! I get scared about the labor and delivery aspect and hope and pray everything turns out alright. I wonder if Travis and I will know just what to do with her when she does get here. I know though that there is no way we could ever be fully prepared for a new baby…we’ll just do the best we can. Until she gets here, I’ll just keep cherishing these moments spent dreaming about what she’ll be like and what it will feel like holding my little newborn.